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part one (There are links at the end of each section.)



The rising wind on his face, and small clatterings and splashes in the streets and fountains of the lower levels answered the growing brightness over the mountains, reminding Bergil that it would not be long before his turn at duty would be over. He turned away from the window and began hunting through the kitchen. He found the cistern, still half filled, and dipped out enough water to wash the cup and pot. And here was the coal scuttle, and kindling, enough to lay a fire on the hearth that would need only to be set ablaze once the cooks arrived. There was very little food in the pantry -- only a few crocks of olive oil and some dried beans -- though someone had been cleaning the shelves as if to make space for more stocks yet to come. Bergil hoped so. As hungry as hobbits were they wouldn’t always want to be climbing up to the palace for meals.

He wiped his hands on his pants, grateful that the black would hide the coaldust and took a deep breath, glancing out the window at blue and gold light. It was time to keep his promise. The Ringbearer must be asleep by now. And if Bergil was just careful enough he’d stay that way.

He left the lantern in the hall, so that only the reflected light would go into the bedroom, but it was enough to see, along with the few embers on the hearth, and the lines of brightening sky around the edges of the balcony curtains. Enough to see once he’d waited for his eyes to catch up anyway, the way that Sam had shown him up at the Houses of Healing. He tiptoed across the room and stood by the bed, fighting down the urge to giggle. It was silly to be this scared. Even if the Ringbearer did wake up, it wasn’t like he was going to bite.

But when he opened the curtain and reached for the pale patch of white that was the fever rag the Ringbearer shifted suddenly and his dark eyes fluttered open, unseeing, as his breath came sudden, faster. His hands twitched on the coverlet, still too caught in sleep to rise against the expected blow. In the faint light he looked frail, as if he’d collapsed in on himself with illness or exhaustion, held together only by the terror that threatened to shake him apart.

Bergil froze, waiting for the nightmare fear to leave Frodo’s face. “It’s all right,” he whispered shakily. “It’s just me. I won’t hurt you.” Just so the men who were dying had looked, when the Black Breath was on them, until the Lord Elfstone had come and given them ease. “I only came to take the fever rag,” Bergil plead. “The way I promised to. It’s all right,” he said again. “No one‘s going to hurt you.”

Frodo blinked and blinked again, and his eyes changed as they focused at last on Bergil and not something terrible beyond. “Who?” he asked, and then remembered. “You were with Sam.”

“Yes, Ringbearer,” Bergil said, reaching carefully for what he’d come for and breathing a sigh of relief when his fingers closed on the stiffened, drying cloth. “He’s asleep now, like you should be. The sun’s not up yet. There‘s plenty of time to sleep.” He let the back of his hand rest against the exposed forehead for a moment, grateful to find that it was too cool for a fever. “I didn’t mean to waken you.”

Gradually the Ringbearer’s face relaxed again and his eyes closed. “It wasn’t you,” he said. “It was a nightmare. Just a bad dream.” He turned away from the light. “Too much wine…”

“Yes, sir,” Bergil said, and pulled the blanket higher, to cover the hobbit’s shoulder.

Frodo didn’t answer, and his breath was slowing. Bergil’s own was still coming fast, and hard, and he had to swallow hard before he could stand back and let the curtain fall to hide the huddled figure again. He knew what would make a person look like that. Knew what could make nightmares come even long after it was dead and gone. Knew because he had those nightmares too, though he’d never dared to tell anyone. How could you explain about nightmares when there was only one thing you could remember about them, and you couldn’t, wouldn’t remember how you’d ever seen the monster of your dreams.

Nazgul.

&&

part fifteen

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Date: 2004-12-22 04:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com
Ooooo. The thought plickens. Bergil is turning into a really wonderful character. Yay!

And what about them Gondorians, keeping their vittles in their underwear? Who knew they were so kinky down South? ;D

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Date: 2004-12-22 04:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
fixed. I really must stop typing without my glassesssss...

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
Thank you by the way. You do realise that I read your comment in a state of such exhaustion that it took me to today to figure out why "plickens" isn't a word?...

;)

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com
Heehee! I totally understand. I think I was close to collapse after posting One Kiss. It was 2:30 in the morning and I had to get up in four hours!

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] serai1.livejournal.com
PS. I think it would be cool if Bergil finds out somehow that the Nazgul King wounded Frodo. Bonding with the Ringbearer!

OK, I'll shut up now.

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Date: 2004-12-22 05:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] febobe.livejournal.com
SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

See, the power of suggestion is everything. . . . ;D *Told* you Frodo would wake; I know what he'll do!

Even if the Ringbearer did wake up, it wasn’t like he was going to bite.

Eeeeeeeee! No. . .sweet lil' thing. . .

But when he opened the curtain and reached for the pale patch of white that was the fever rag the Ringbearer shifted suddenly and his dark eyes fluttered open, unseeing, as his breath came sudden, faster. His hands twitched on the coverlet, still too caught in sleep to rise against the expected blow. In the faint light he looked frail, as if he’d collapsed in on himself with illness or exhaustion, held together only by the terror that threatened to shake him apart.

I'll have you know I nearly passed out from sheer delight when I read THAT, missy.

PERFECTION.

Bergil froze, waiting for the nightmare fear to leave Frodo’s face. “It’s all right,” he whispered shakily. “It’s just me. I won’t hurt you.” Just so the men who were dying had looked, when the Black Breath was on them, until the Lord Elfstone had come and given them ease. “I only came to take the fever rag,” Bergil plead. “The way I promised to. It’s all right,” he said again. “No one‘s going to hurt you.”

*sobs tearfully* SOOOOOOOOO sweet. . . .

Frodo blinked and blinked again, and his eyes changed as they focused at last on Bergil and not something terrible beyond. “Who?” he asked, and then remembered. “You were with Sam.”

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! :D

“Yes, Ringbearer,” Bergil said, reaching carefully for what he’d come for and breathing a sigh of relief when his fingers closed on the stiffened, drying cloth. “He’s asleep now, like you should be. The sun’s not up yet. There‘s plenty of time to sleep.” He let the back of his hand rest against the exposed forehead for a moment, grateful to find that it was too cool for a fever. “I didn’t mean to waken you.”

TOO precious for words!!!! And even not-feverish Frodo is sooooo darling. . .esp. w/sweet lil' Bergil feeling his forehead. . . .

Gradually the Ringbearer’s face relaxed again and his eyes closed. “It wasn’t you,” he said. “It was a nightmare. Just a bad dream.” He turned away from the light. “Too much wine…”

Legolas should've stopped the poor wee one. Poor thing. . . . Oh, the poor doll. . . .

“Yes, sir,” Bergil said, and pulled the blanket higher, to cover the hobbit’s shoulder.

Squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

Frodo didn’t answer, and his breath was slowing. Bergil’s own was still coming fast, and hard, and he had to swallow hard before he could stand back and let the curtain fall to hide the huddled figure again. He knew what would make a person look like that. Knew what could make nightmares come even long after it was dead and gone. Knew because he had those nightmares too, though he’d never dared to tell anyone. How could you explain about nightmares when there was only one thing you could remember about them, and you couldn’t, wouldn’t remember how you’d ever seen the monster of your dreams.

Nazgul.


*DIES*

This is sheer brilliance. I love this more than ANYTHING. Stunning stunning stunning stunning stunning stunning. . . .

And poor little huddled Frodo. . . .

*fans self*

Somebody hose me down now. . .I think I need a cold shower!!!!

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elycia.livejournal.com
You know, I'm beginning to wonder if you're going to survive this. ;-)

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
*raises eyebrow, decides she won't ask*

Yes, it's your fault. I had a nice angstless plan, and when I sat down to write it my subconscious decided that Frodo should be restless and then... well...

*stares at words, wondering where she's gonna go from Here*

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Date: 2004-12-22 05:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lame-pegasus.livejournal.com
Wow.

Just wow.

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
*grin*

I wasn't expecting that either...

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Date: 2004-12-22 08:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] melilot-hill.livejournal.com
Another wonderful chapter :)

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
Thank you!

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Date: 2004-12-22 09:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] unhobbityhobbit.livejournal.com
As mcuh as I've thought about Bergil (and I do because he's cool and like a hobbit in some ways) I managed to completely bypass the fact that he could have had dreams himself. Silly me.

Damn nazgul.

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Date: 2004-12-23 01:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
When you look at the descriptions of what the Nazgul did when they swooped near Minas Tirith I should think that everyone in the city has nightmares...

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elycia.livejournal.com
ooooo. Interesting turn of events, here! Poor Bergil. A nightmarish Frodo is not an easy thing to handle, even for the experienced!

He wiped his hands on his pants, grateful that the black would hide the coaldust

I LOVE this. So like a kid! It's wonderful how you've left these touches that show us how Bergil is really still just a child, despite his responsibilities.

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:32 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
Thank you. I never forget how young Bergil is, or how upside down his world must seem just now.

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Date: 2004-12-22 11:52 am (UTC)
dreamflower: gandalf at bag end (Default)
From: [personal profile] dreamflower
Oh Wow! This *is* unexpected! You've gone from semi-fluff to angst in just one word.
*Whoosh* Now I am *reallyreallyreally* anxious to see more!

And by the way, I too, loved the wiping hands on pants bit. It's little touches like that which are making this story so memorable.

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
I'll see what I can do. I'm really not sure what should happen next, but I'm thinking about it.

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Date: 2004-12-22 03:00 pm (UTC)
shirebound: (Sleeping Frodo - Mucun/Rei)
From: [personal profile] shirebound
Your Bergil is such a marvelous character. I never dreamed anyone could bring him to life like this!

Maybe he can ease Frodo's terrors by letting him know that others have them, too, and that he's not alone, and can talk about them?

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:33 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
I think eventually they'll both need to talk to someone, but I don't think either one of them is ready to yet.

Still...

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Date: 2004-12-22 04:23 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gentlehobbit.livejournal.com
Your story *did* take a left turn, didn't it!

I love the way that you have forged a connection between Bergil and Frodo. Despite Frodo's particular experiences, it brings him and the people of Minas Tirith closer together in their suffering -- the shared horror and dreams of the Nazgul.

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
When you go back and read the description of what the Nazgul screams did to the warriors on the walls and then think... there were children in that town...

*whew*

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Date: 2004-12-22 09:36 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] claudia603.livejournal.com
oooh, how chilling! And again -- I shall repeat again -- I love your Bergil!

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Date: 2004-12-22 10:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
Thank you! (And thank you for letting middle earth news know about this -- I think it must be you, because it isn't me. It's interesting having people along for the bunny chase.)

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Date: 2004-12-23 04:56 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] claudia603.livejournal.com
It might have been me to begin with, but...I'm afraid I've been very lax with letting Middle earth news know things lately (since I've been in grading hell and then out of town as presently the case), so it must be someone else, or the lovely [livejournal.com profile] aratlithiel! ;-)

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Date: 2004-12-23 05:07 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
*blink*

Okay. I'm grateful to whoever it is, anyway, because by the time I post it's usually pushing midnight and time for me to go to bed, and remembering another step is beyond me.

I hope the trip is giving you a lovely relaxing time after grading hell.

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Date: 2004-12-23 04:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] grey-wonderer.livejournal.com
Now this is interesting. We get a bit about Bergil's nightmares too. I should think a young lad caught in a city filled with soldiers and war would have some very terrible nightmares. Maybe more-so now that he is worried about his father's future and in a way, his own. I like where it is going.

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Date: 2004-12-23 04:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com
I'm enjoying the ride as much as anyone I think. I honestly don't think a whole lot about what should happen until I sit down at the computer, and sometimes my writer's mind comes up with things I never expected. It certainly did in this section.

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Date: 2005-01-10 04:45 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mariole.livejournal.com
Argh. My heart breaks for poor Frodo and Bergil. Lovely description of the nightmare, and Minas Tirith's own "Mount Doom."

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Date: 2005-01-26 02:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cpsings4him.livejournal.com
Oh!! I am just falling in love with Bergil! I want to adopt him! :) So kind and gentle and thoughtful. And bless his little heart that he KNOWS what those dreams are about. And...my poor Frodo! *kisses him gently and sends him into sweet dreams*

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